I'm backed !
Yay, I am backed to blogger again after a long time. Undoubtedly, I am here to release my emotional feeling and stress again.. I am having a serious depression in this week, because I was like going through a lot of bad things in my friendship/ real life?
I am always thinking of University life should be better compared to my primary school or secondary school? For my opinion, if I get the chance to choose Uni /primary / secondary .. definitely I will cross out my primary and secondary for no reasons. ( I rarely contact my primary/ secondary school friends? hmmm? )
I prefer university, of course because of him. However, I like university because I think I got the chances to meet friends from different background or countries. Ya, I am a University student and I am currently studying my Bachelor in Medical Biotechnology. Why am I choosing this course? At first, my consideration field is medical field. I am a person who likes to challenge something new and different from others. Plus, I really think that dueling with laboratory works are obviously better than dueling with people? Because I don't dare and also don't dare to try surgery or dentistry... And ya, I chose this course.
I like the environment for sure. However, I still facing many challenges in my studies because it is a bit difficult for me to learn things fast and arrange my own time/ schedule. Because I like feeling tired very easily and always feel sleepy, a nap is necessary for me if I am home early? hey ! I am not lazy just because I feel tired for early class in lab okay :p
I have a gang of friends and we will definitely form a group when group assignment is required. The truth is, when you know a person more and more, you will get to know the shortcomings of your friends especially for some over hardworking/smart friends and also for some free riders ..... Ya! It is always a tired and annoying things to think about when you have to same group with such friends because you gonna be fast as them or you gonna help them to finish their assignment. Nothing is fair? Maybe? Thus, my gang started to talk bad of somebody behind, it is bad for sure, but I know everyone got their chances to speak out their mind and release emotional; on the other hand, the person who been talked bad is pity .. Hehe I always torn between these two types of thinking. ANYWAY I DECIDED TO RUN AWAY BECAUSE I THINK MY NEGATIVITY IS GETTING HIGHER :(
Okay, another things to talk about today, it is about my car was hit by someone else (unknown people). Because the people ran after hitting ... Ya damn sucks for such people in the society. I only could blame myself for having bad lucks! I was definitely sad and depressed, because I did nothing wrong actually? I parked my car outside the factory. I confirmed that I didn't block anyone, and when I finished my stuff, walking out, I saw my car had hit but someone, the bumper was jumped out. Ya, I didn't know who did it. The first thing I did was calling my parents and him. My parents definitely Asian parents that blaming my fault and saying that I should not go out by driving to the factory. I was upset that time, because my car being hit was not my wish, and ya I didn't know what my fault and I just be quiet that moment. After that I started to cry, as I was lost, I did not know what can I do, and what I did. TODAY DEFINITELY A BAD DAY FOR ME, AND I THINK MY DEPRESSION GETTING SERIOUS TOO. Oh Shit, but I don't know what to do, because I am not given a single chance to explain.
So ya, I am backed with a depression mood. Anyway, I think I will share more and release my stress right here started by today. I ABSOLUTELY WISH TO BE MORE POSITIVE AND HAPPY AND CONFIDENCE.
See you, again:)
(forgive my grammar, because my mind is a bit confused right now)
I am always thinking of University life should be better compared to my primary school or secondary school? For my opinion, if I get the chance to choose Uni /
I prefer university, of course because of him. However, I like university because I think I got the chances to meet friends from different background or countries. Ya, I am a University student and I am currently studying my Bachelor in Medical Biotechnology. Why am I choosing this course? At first, my consideration field is medical field. I am a person who likes to challenge something new and different from others. Plus, I really think that dueling with laboratory works are obviously better than dueling with people? Because I don't dare and also don't dare to try surgery or dentistry... And ya, I chose this course.
I like the environment for sure. However, I still facing many challenges in my studies because it is a bit difficult for me to learn things fast and arrange my own time/ schedule. Because I like feeling tired very easily and always feel sleepy, a nap is necessary for me if I am home early? hey ! I am not lazy just because I feel tired for early class in lab okay :p
I have a gang of friends and we will definitely form a group when group assignment is required. The truth is, when you know a person more and more, you will get to know the shortcomings of your friends especially for some over hardworking/smart friends and also for some free riders ..... Ya! It is always a tired and annoying things to think about when you have to same group with such friends because you gonna be fast as them or you gonna help them to finish their assignment. Nothing is fair? Maybe? Thus, my gang started to talk bad of somebody behind, it is bad for sure, but I know everyone got their chances to speak out their mind and release emotional; on the other hand, the person who been talked bad is pity .. Hehe I always torn between these two types of thinking. ANYWAY I DECIDED TO RUN AWAY BECAUSE I THINK MY NEGATIVITY IS GETTING HIGHER :(
Okay, another things to talk about today, it is about my car was hit by someone else (unknown people). Because the people ran after hitting ... Ya damn sucks for such people in the society. I only could blame myself for having bad lucks! I was definitely sad and depressed, because I did nothing wrong actually? I parked my car outside the factory. I confirmed that I didn't block anyone, and when I finished my stuff, walking out, I saw my car had hit but someone, the bumper was jumped out. Ya, I didn't know who did it. The first thing I did was calling my parents and him. My parents definitely Asian parents that blaming my fault and saying that I should not go out by driving to the factory. I was upset that time, because my car being hit was not my wish, and ya I didn't know what my fault and I just be quiet that moment. After that I started to cry, as I was lost, I did not know what can I do, and what I did. TODAY DEFINITELY A BAD DAY FOR ME, AND I THINK MY DEPRESSION GETTING SERIOUS TOO. Oh Shit, but I don't know what to do, because I am not given a single chance to explain.
So ya, I am backed with a depression mood. Anyway, I think I will share more and release my stress right here started by today. I ABSOLUTELY WISH TO BE MORE POSITIVE AND HAPPY AND CONFIDENCE.
See you, again:)
(forgive my grammar, because my mind is a bit confused right now)
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